God knows we are going to fail at most things in our lives. God knows we are going to injure more than we love. God knows we are going to prove disloyal and adulterous most of the time in our relationship with Him. It is no surprise to God when we give a false and ugly testimony to His beauty and greatness. The important part in all of this is to have the same response to our failures as God. If we are shocked, horrified and surprised by our terrible thoughts and behaviors (because of our human expectation to try and be good people) we remain trapped in a cycle of trying to be good (or successful), failing, then being immersed in shame and trying to restore our resolve to become what we unconsciously want to be—self sufficient. This is a classic process of futility, expecting different results using the same useless formula. An unbalanced mind and a divided heart is the result and confusion ensues leading us into still more darkness, or more accurately, a diminished presence of God’s light.